anj.eye

reflection

2011-06-09T11:29:00.003-06:00

the year was 2004, spring of 2004 to be precise. i was preparing to move outta the comforts of my parent's house and into an apartment downtown. yes, i had lived on my own before while attending utah state, but this was completely different. i was headed to the city to become, what my mom always refers to me as, "a true urbanite." turns out the city was the closet thing to "home" that i have ever felt outside of my home. anyway, the other day whilst out on my bike, i remembered this one song and that one album and this show that i had seen at kilby court just prior to my move... it took some time, but it finally came back to me and i rushed home to download the the gem... here it is, and i'll post the lyrics as well... i still love it, and probably a bit more because it brings back such great memories of such a promising time... and i love last part, "we've got somethin, nothin else matters now does it..."

you packed your life up into boxes
and what didn't fit
you carried
and the heavy things you left
the city loves you
it gives you oxygen
and a little space
to be filled
with all the heavy things you make

i'm not wasting loose change
‘cause i'm changing
falls without wings
i'm not waiting on tables to turn
cause i'm turning
forgive me for all things

the mirror kisses like you once did
at first it's cold
but delicate
then it reflects much more
my focus now is on the closest things
since my glasses broke
someone else should drive
or i might not leave at all

i'm not wasting loose change
‘cause i'm changing
falls without wings
i'm not waiting
on tables to turn
‘cause i'm turning
forgive me for all things

i'm not wasting loose change
‘cause i'm changing
falls without wings
i'm not waiting
on tables to turn
‘cause i'm turning
forgive me for all things
i'm not disapproving
if you got something to prove
well then prove it
falls without wings
we've got something
nothing else matters now does it
forgive me for all things

...

2011-06-07T08:37:00.002-06:00

it is so absolutely blissful to look at the face of a handsome man and think, "omg. how did i even get so fortunate to be here, next to you, in the now?"

loooove that feeling. loving my time spent with quality people and quality conversation. not to mention the many giggles...

for dupree...

2011-06-06T16:00:00.001-06:00

hi miss pixie. look who started blogging again!

...and travis, too!

2011-02-19T18:16:00.004-07:00

in some sort-of a strange coincidence, i get a text from my older brother, trav, this afternoon asking if i'm reading "born to run." thinking he must've read the blog, we exchange pleasantries regarding the book, which basically means i said, "i know you love being right & you were right about reading on a tablet." anyway, to make this short story even shorter, trav had no idea that ty had made the same suggestion three hours earlier. sooo, i suppose the moral here is this: if you ask of the universe the universe will answer... even if by "ask" you really mean bitch on twitter about selling your soul for a life of pain free running...

i love you, older broddy.

thanks ty

2011-02-19T12:41:00.009-07:00

there have been several times in my life when trivial things arise and for whatever reason this bigger little brother of mine knows the one thing to say that will spin everything back into perspective... in such a loving way his simple wisdom brings me imense comfort... for example...

once when i was crying for whatever reason, he said to me, "anj, you know why we cry? it's to get the hurt out." i have no idea if he heard this somewhere or if he came up with it on his own, but i will never forget how much better i felt...

another time i said something along the lines of patience not being a virtue of mine to which ty retorted, "yeah, but being awesome is!"

and just today, when my inability to run without pain for even five minutes had me fighting off tears from the treadmill, a simple "i think you should read born to run," snapped me back into reality and reminded me some time-off is not the end of the world...

i am so lucky to have him in my life and the truly value our relationship... anyone who knows ty knows what i'm talking about... and if you don't know him, just know this: he is one helluva dancer! a virtue of his, amongst many...

i love you, broddy.

just a couple things...

2011-02-08T12:16:00.004-07:00

and maybe a few more.

this morning while i was on the treadmill, i realized these things:
a) if you forget the watch/receiver it will render your heart rate monitor useless which will only make you more uncomfortable than you already are with the chest strap+sports bra+built in tank bra combo.
b) incline should be at 1% to "simulate" running outside. if the incline is at 4% and you don't notice until you're 20 minutes in and honestly cannot figure-out why this run is the suck, you're an idiot.
c) lip-syncing while you run is not embarrassing, it's a smart way to gauge your heart's output when you find yourself in predicament a.
d) you should know i do c even when i do have the watch/receiver+chest strap+sports bra+built in tank bra combo. SHAMELESS.

so-long, farewell...

2010-12-28T22:34:00.000-07:00

...don't the the door hit you in the ass on your way out...

2010 was one of the craziest, longest-yet-shortest years i can remember in... um, forever... and although i learned sooo much about myself [not an exaggeration], i am sooo happy to see it go [also not an exaggeration]... i have always looked forward to the newness and hopes of a new year... hell, sometimes i find myself simply looking forward to the hopes of a new day, but i digress... 2011 is seemingly more-so magical and the future seems wrapped in a pretty package with a fancy bow... now, more than ever, i realize that i truly am the master of my own craft - my craft of which is my life... not only am i closing a chapter on this year, but also a decade of my life... a crazy decade that was filled with tears and heartache, accomplishment and lessons learned... integral pieces of my story that make me, me... it feels kinda weird to be excited about turning 30... but going against the social norm probably doesn't surprise any of you who know me...

i am looking forward to this next chapter with such sweet anticipation... age may be irrelevant and it may be just a number, but i feel like i am finally coming into where i belong...

'tis the season...

2010-12-08T11:54:00.006-07:00

i hope this helps you find the holiday spirit as much as it has helped me...

pS. sorry mom :)

she is risen!

2010-11-29T20:38:00.002-07:00

hello hello hello. i'm back. stranger things have been known to happen, like jordan wynn actually giving a shit about his team and fans... i digress, i won't make any promises as to future content, but i will promise that i still love peanut butter and still laugh at my own jokes.

xxoo. anj.

sums it all up with a nice little bow...

2009-12-02T10:43:00.003-07:00

"everything is beautiful and nothing hurts." -kurt vonnegut

[my knees still kinda hurt, so that is not entirely true, but for the most part, everything is right in my world and my globe is spinning ever so whimsically...]

happy tummy

2009-11-06T19:51:00.001-07:00

serious shout-out to beth bolt and her pumpkin curry soup!! sorry your mom isn't as great as my mom. unless, of course, your mom is my mom [travis and ty, i'm looking at you].

this face...

2009-09-24T12:13:00.003-06:00

... never ceases to make me smile. sometimes when i get a bit discouraged or sad, i look at pictures of charlie and it reminds me that life is wonderful. i love you charlie.

in love...

2009-09-21T12:22:00.002-06:00

...with the xx. do yourself a favor and fall in love with them too.

yeah! yeah yeah yeahs!

2009-09-15T11:51:00.006-06:00

sunday was awesome. the only thing that could've made it any better would have involved 16 miles, my ipod, water and cliff bocks... i digress, so back to the awesomeness...

yeah yeah yeahs in the venue!!

the photo is not the best, as it was taken with my phone, but the show was outstanding... i love karen o. i love her voice, her wacky fashion, her ability to spew water out of her mouth as if it were a fountain, etc. etc. etc... they played a lot from the first two albums and the is is ep, which are my favorites, so honestly the only thing that i can complain about is the venue. but i'd rather not. it's lunchtime and i'm hungry.

funny

2009-09-14T12:38:00.004-06:00

friday night i got this from my home-/hair-girl:

at first i thought it was totally random and way funny... then i remembered that i had texted her a few hours before with this question:

so i went to the salon saturday morning with dirty, dirty hair! and she didn't mind at all...

bummer, dudes...

2009-09-12T11:44:00.004-06:00

many of you know i've been diligently training for a marathon. some of you also know that i've been having some serious issues with my knees. well, i went to an orthopedic knee surgeon on thursday and as it turns out, i'm not to run for 4-6 weeks... like, at all... i have moderate tendinitis in both knees, and although they call it "moderate" there's nothing moderate about the pain. it's frustrating and depressing, especially considering i had been doing everything i thought necessary. i think the most frustrating part is that mentally, all i want to do is this marathon. my body and mind are both craving 10+ mile runs... crazy, i know, but marathoners are crazy. it's part of the deal. anyway, my mind is there and my body is not. a few weeks ago i was telling some non-runners that probably the most amazing thing to me had not been the distances i was going or the mileage i was building on a weekly basis, but the mental transformation i was experiencing... watching myself push through these barriers i never thought were possible was not only painful, but also completely exhilarating! i had been reading up on nutrition and discovering the best things to fuel pre- and post-run. i was loving learning and feeling and breathing and moving! ice baths, believe it or not, were motivating! ha!

hmmmph... i know i'll get to that place again, and next time i'll be stronger mentally and physically, it's just frustrating to have to be patient and wait...

sidenote: i did get a confirmation from the long beach marathon registration people that i will be able to roll-over the $100 registration fee to the 2010 race... i'm considering the salt lake full in april, but if not, i will certainly be running 26.2 miles along ocean drive in 2010!!

six down, six to go...

2009-08-31T11:29:00.005-06:00

training for a marathon is both brutal and amazing. the mental transformation i'm experiencing is what fascinates me the most... here are my feet which i'd like to thank for putting-up with me and the past six weeks. i'm half-way there. huzzah!

indeed!

2009-08-26T21:27:00.003-06:00

image via le love

...

2009-08-25T21:37:00.002-06:00

i've decided to be wealthy...

...and it was so.

vivian girls

2009-08-25T12:55:00.006-06:00

i might be a bit slow on this one, but i read about the vivian girls in the new york times today. the article sparked my curiosity so i surfed on over to the popular social networking web-site known as myspace. although not a member myself [rIp profile, 2002-2008] i still utilize the 'space to stream music... that's a lot of words to basically come to this point: go to this link and listen to the vivian girls.

http://music.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=music.artistalbums&artistid=1436739&albumid=10778163

p.s. you're welcome lumpy :)

crap

2009-08-24T11:10:00.005-06:00

my knees were a bit achy this morning so i decided to skip the bike and take the train... thinking i had singles, when i got to the trax stop i realized i only had $1 bill or a $20 bill... the fare is $2.00 so i was left with only one option... the outcome of which is this:

dammit! eighteen dollars in gold coinage makes for one heavy wallet!

lesson learned: be prepared. and ride the bicycle.

the emerald city...

2009-08-20T21:26:00.008-06:00

so i went to seattle at the beginning of july to spend some much needed quality time with some much appreciated quality friends... gerrad finally emailed me some photos [camera battery died and i found myself sans charger] so here they are for your viewing pleasure... but mainly my mom's because she has bought it up a few times.

i had great intentions of posting serveral photos, but then i got super impatient waiting for blogger to upload... hopefully these two will do.

getting older

2009-08-19T16:11:00.003-06:00

i talk about the weather and listen to npr all day long.

i. am. awesome.

grosser than just kinda-gross?

2009-08-19T15:55:00.005-06:00

so i'm losing a toe nail. it comes with marathon training. this toe nail has been "special" [aka retarded] for 7ish years now... anyway, i thought about taking a picture and posting it but then i thought some of you might find that gross... maybe even real gross. so let's take a poll... who wants a picture and who wants to throw-up now?

thanks, in advance, for your kind attention to this matter.

well said...

2009-08-18T20:55:00.003-06:00

sylvia plath:

"and by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. the worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt."

i would hate for kyle, or anyone of you for that matter, to be bored... so with that, you will be relieved to know that i have a new-found interest in this blog.

.

"when we kiss it feels like a flying saucer landing"

2009-07-10T15:49:00.010-06:00

this song [plus many others]:

hey look!

2009-06-19T13:57:00.004-06:00

the weekend forecast is lamer than my blog!

the only saving grace is that i've got a hot date with a hot babe tonight. oh, and the celebration of my fathers on sunday.

tomato, tomah-toh

2009-06-04T21:31:00.002-06:00

sometimes you wanna blog, and other times [i'm going on months here...] ya just don't.

i really like the pixelation in this... i also really like animal collective... like a lot:

sleeping in...

2009-05-25T11:16:00.006-06:00

...is so awesome. my body rarely let's me engage in such activity since it is programed to be up at 5:30am, mon-fri. so today, when i laid in bed 'til 10:45, it felt like quite the treat. however, such a treat pretty much kills my motivation to do anything else aside from just lounge in bed and [apparently] blog. i have two things i have to do today. they are: go running and clean my apartment. oh, and do the laundry i've been putting off, but that kinda ties in with the latter...

here's the problem --------> neither one of those things sounds fun right now. and shouldn't i be doing something fun on my day off?!

ugh, being an adult can be so overrated... now where are those running shoes?

editors edit: ok, so that run was what we'll call quite the beat-down... however, i feel amazing now so it was obviously a good time... now on to the cleaning... it's already 3:00... ha! mom, can i borrow your berta*?!

*berta is my mom's cleaning lady...

without further adu...

2009-05-22T20:04:00.000-06:00

paris oh-nine from anji nilsson on Vimeo.

i made an imovie of some photos from paris... it's the first one i've ever made and it took me about 3.5 hours... i tried to time the photos with the music so that it kinda appears to be dancing... hopefully you see that too... regardless, i'm quite proud of it! enjoy!

adventures in euroland

2009-05-13T18:01:00.001-06:00

jet lag is no joke. i'll post more photos when i've got the energies... that might not be til the weekend, my friends. but my trip was fantastic and traveling is the best thing ever! maybe even better than peanut butter...

you makeh me laughing

2009-05-01T08:57:00.000-06:00

now this might be too much info, but honestly i don't really care...

while discussing my upcoming vacation with "lilly" [i've changed her name because she might be embarassed that i posted this on here, but it was really funny so i have to share], and oh, did i mention i'm going on vacation? yeah, ok. anyway, this person suggested i pack some extra dental floss and possibly a crochet hook... i was a bit confused and asked her why i would need these things... her response:

"in case you run out of clean underwear."

this guy...

2009-04-27T18:01:00.001-06:00

... this was my guy:

jack e. belt, 1939-2009
you will be missed terribly.

please please please

2009-04-14T12:32:00.000-06:00

keep my uncle jack in your prayers... and his lovely wife, jo, too.

tonight!

2009-04-08T12:43:00.000-06:00

i just recently started listening to lily allen and i love her... not sure how i overlooked this cute little tart on her first go-round, but i'm making up for lost time... with that said, i'm really excited to see her tonight. this is one of my favs:

somehow i relate to her and her lyrics. i find it uncanny, to say the least. but i really think her and i could be friends.

springtime, dancetime!

2009-04-01T10:41:00.001-06:00

although it's not very spring like outside right now [it's snowing and freeeezing - it is also april 1], the spring fever in me makes me long for dancey, poppy songs... such as this lovely by little boots... get into it!

way cool [part two]

2009-03-26T16:06:00.001-06:00

i really like this quote:

"I must learn to love the fool in me--the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries. It alone protects me against that utterly self-controlled, masterful tyrant whom I also harbor and who would rob me of human aliveness, humility, and dignity but for my fool." -- Theodore I. Rubin, MD

way cool

2009-03-26T11:13:00.001-06:00

where the wild things are has always been one of my favorite books so it just makes sense that i'd be excited about the movie, right? especially since spike jonez is doing it... and wake up by the arcade fire is playing in the trailer... see, like i said, it just makes sense...

not bad for a saturday

2009-03-23T08:29:00.000-06:00

whilst driving to rei on saturday afternoon, rob spotted what he thought was money lying in the street... teresa and i were skeptical thinking it was probably just a piece of paper or something... but rob with his "hawk eye" was bound and determined to find out... so we turn around, he pulls over, darts into the middle of the street, and comes running back to the car with not only a huge grin, but also $20! enter teresa saying "oh, hey - there's another one!" ... once again there goes rob risking his life for a $20 bill. and as if $40 weren't enough, i look over and see another one in the middle of the other street and, never one to pass up free money, i jump out of the car and go grab it!

all three of us must be living right because all three of us gained $20 on saturday. rob spent his on ice cream. teresa and i have decided to save our findings and spend them in vegas next weekend... UNBELIEVABLE, really... and totally awesome.

"i want something unignorable!"

2009-03-11T15:58:00.000-06:00

the universe [or whatever you want to call it] never ceases to amaze me... once you put something out there, with a little patience, it eventually becomes your reality.

i <3 <3 <3 my life!

something sweet or something strong...

2009-03-03T15:32:00.000-07:00

it's funny how a song can instantly draw you back to a moment... the memory is so vivid that even certain smells come instantly flooding back... take this song, for example:

it just came on the pandora and as i'm sitting in my cubicle, i'm suddenly taken back to the summer of 2004... i had just moved downtown to the art space bridge project... it is a friday night and i'm getting ready to meet friends at the art gallery downstairs for gallery stroll... it was just before sunset and i was drinking a glass of wine - it was white, and although i'm not exactly sure if it was the cavit pinot grigio or dancing bull sav, i can say without a doubt it was one of those two [i consumed a lot of both that summer, you see]... i had just sprayed my perfume [hence the smell part] and was dancing around my room to this song... just before heading out the door, i snapped this photo... it was totally for mypspace [how appropriate]:

this ain't seaworld...

2009-03-01T11:58:00.000-07:00

... this is real as it gets!

lisa and i hit up the andrew bird show last wednesday night. that place was packed and aside from both of us feeling like old ladies, we managed to stay out past our bed times... we also managed to both get up and hit the gym in the morning. being responsible is so adult-ish, don't you think?!

and just a sidenote about lisa, our friendship goes back to the eighth grade... we were fourteen and bonded over my so called life. anyway, one of my favorite things about our friendship is the inside jokes that are still funny 10+ years later. lis, this one's for you giiiiirl: "run sisel, run!" and "fellas, yeah!" thanks for a fun night!

...

2009-02-28T10:02:00.000-07:00

i love my life! just putting that out there...

yesssssssssssss!

2009-02-24T11:52:00.000-07:00

i have been waiting, and waiting, and anticipating and getting stoked on the yeah yeah yeah's new album, it's blitz! ....... a few tracks have been leaked [god bless the world wide web] and you can stream them here. album due april 18th. tour tba... i. can. NOT. WAIT!

also, i have a new love:

somewhat laughable

2009-02-19T10:03:00.000-07:00

i think i'm more embarrassed about this than anything. that's a ridiculous amount of text messages. true, i am a fan of the text - but there's a lot to be said about phone time... needless to say, they've upped me to an unlimited plan.

we might have a problem...

2009-02-18T23:28:00.000-07:00

... i went out to the house tonight [parent's house, that is - they're m.i.a. until march 15th] to poke around and restock my peanut butter supply. first thing i notice is the car... more specifically, the SCATCH/SCRAPE/EEEK! up and down the back bumper, driver side. the expeditionist has been parked in the driveway since thursday so how this happened, i have no idea. how i'm going to explain it is completely beyond me. the only thing i can think of is that the snow remover dudes did something. if they don't come back after the next storm, i'll know i'm right. i wouldn't even know who to call to ask them about it...

i'll get a picture this weekend, but i can't stop thinking about what the hell could've happened... i leave the car in the safest place i can think of, as i won't be needing it for a few days, and........... W! T! F!

this is not good. not good at all.

g g g g-unIt "literature"

2009-02-16T22:13:00.000-07:00

while searching through a box of books at the cabin this past weekend, i came across this:

50 cent wrote a book? could it be?! i mean, i know he took a few shells and now he walks with a limp [see "in da club" for explanation] but a book deal?! fiddy, i had no idea!

the back cover was the best:
street justice wasn't his way. but for his older brothers, it was the only way.
the seven davis brothers made a promise to their mother on her deathbed: they would each make something of their lives. and they vowed they would watch over eighteen-year-old zabu davis, their baby brother. intelligent, driven, and charismatic, baby brother had resisted the lure of brooklyn street life and was headed for stanford university on a pre-med scholarship. but on the eve of his departure to california, in a split second of blinding violence, baby brother's life is thrown onto a tragic collision course. soon, his devoted brothers follow of path of blood justice that will rock the city streets. baby brother was their pride and joy. now, he's their reason to fight for vengeance.

introducing g-unit books by 50 cent--a hot new series of hip-hop novellas that dare to tell the truth about the life. the lovers, the haters, the guns, the money, the highs, the lows, the street: for real.

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unfortunately i can't tell you much about the book or about life on the street [for real]... it was so poorly written that i only made it to page eight. have you ever tried to read slang? how about a raunchy sex scene in slang? yeah, all that in eight pages.

the awesomeness lies in the principle, i guess... "its fid-dy...."

off the grid

2009-02-12T17:40:00.001-07:00

headed to the mountains and specifically sarah's cabin this weekend... its weird to think that there will be no internet or phone service for such a connected lady [read: me]... the r&r will be a well deserved treat however...

happy <3 day to all you lovers and non-lovers out there... hopefully i'll be over this lack-of-blogs-slump when i return.

question: what does anji think is cool?

2009-02-02T15:27:00.000-07:00

answer:

randomness in twenty-five

2009-02-01T11:09:00.000-07:00

some of you have seen this on the FB, i'm posting it here for all my non-FB followers [hi mom!]...

1. i feel that there had to be some sort of divine force involved when my parents were deciding what to name me. they had no idea that spelling it the way they did would be oh so appropriate for their little girl.

2. i have no idea why i prefer to type without caps.

3. i love bicycles and bicycle culture. being able to ride yesterday [and today] after a two month hiatus only reconfirmed my love of riding. i plan to purchase a more serious road bike sometime this spring so that i can get outta the downtown area and into spandex... uh, we'll see about the spandex - but yeah, new bike woot woot!

4. since we're on the topic: just because i ride a fixed-gear does not make me a hipster. although i tend to listen to the same music, have an affinity toward apple products, and sport some bangs does not constitute any assumption of this stereotype in regard to me. also, i have a bone to pick with the hipster dudes: your skinny jeans make it impossible for me to tell if you are gay or straight. this is not a good thing. a nice fit is OK, skin tight [cheap mondays] are not.

5. the daily diet coke has never hindered my athletic performance whatsoever. i drink plenty of water [and by plenty, i mean plen-tyyy] and have gone through periods of non-consumption. no difference. fizz on, my friends.

6. i'd like to say i live without regrets, but i have made some mistakes and have had to learn some lessons the hard way. i learned an incredible amount about myself from these lessons, but if i could do it again, i'd do it differently. i do not dwell on this, however, and have moved on, and i firmly believe these lessons have made me a better person.

7. i have this strange love for peanut butter. travis shares the same love. i'm not sure where it came from, but if i don't get my daily scoop i kinda feel ripped off. it's not natural, but my choice in peanut butter is.

8. if i could have dinner with any living famous person it would be thom yorke. he is absolutely brilliant. in fact, after a bad break up in which the loser kept my fancy watch and faint t-shirt, i discovered said loser had put the entire radiohead discography on my external hard drive. i feel that it was worth the exchange, but i still want that t-shirt back.

9. zombies! shit!

10. it typically catches people way off guard when i tell them i don't have a car. some people probably think it's weird, but i think it's awesome. i live downtown and work downtown and with adequate planning being carless in salt lake is no big deal.

11. i've been thinking about going back to school for quite awhile. if this happens, it will be in the design field for sure. not necessarily graphic design, but something creative.

12. i hated having to listen to npr when i was growing up and now i hate my mornings without it. al [my step-dad] was an npr-junkie and now that i'm older i understand why. it happens to when you get to be 26-27. some of you have that to look forward to.

13. i love college football and specifically the runnin utes. lucky for me, my dad has season tickets. brian johnson almost gave my dad a couple heart-attacks this year, but also lucky for me mr. johnson pulled through and dad avoided the ER for another season.

14. i'm not afraid to admit that i love pop music. with the exception of beyonce.

15. my brothers are amazing people and i'm not sure they have any idea just how much they have influenced my life. new balance 990s aside - my brothers are cooler than yours.

16. on the mac vs. pc issue: can't we all just get along?

17. i love to dance but am not a dancer. i was recently told i'm somewhat awkward about it. this was a compliment for me, as the boy who told me only listens to rae-gay.

18. i'm running out of things to say. this is harder than i thought.

19. i recently started wearing red lipstick on occasion and was instantly drawn to the confidence it induces. kinda weird - but i walked out the door and was like, "wow, i'm on fire!" people respect a woman in red lipstick. [a note to the ladies: make sure you get the right shade. it can either be good, or tragically bad.]

20. i love, love, love denim. it is by far my favorite material and this is going to sound totally weird - but from it's rawest raw to the way a good pair of jeans feels, i love it. everything about it.

21. i hate washing my hair. i think it's the whole blow-dry-straighten process that i really do not enjoy. i push it as far as possible and lie to myself saying i'm doing it as to extend the life of my color. that's not true. i'm just lazy.

22. i hate mushrooms and think they're gross. i won't think you're gross for eating them.

23. i regularly maintain my eyebrows but no one can tell because they're always covered by my hair. you can also tell how old a woman is by her eyebrows - if they seem over-plucked and thin, chances are she's in her 30s.

24. my diesel jeans totally fit again. tried them on today and was like "booyah!" ... seriously, that's what i said when i looked in the mirror.

25. i recently got into spinning and now find myself craving it. not the i-wanna-puke-right-now-on-the-teachers-shoes feeling itself per se, but the after-glow... those endorphins are totally addicting!

nerd alert: hands-free!

2009-01-30T10:22:00.000-07:00

i will be the first to say that i have always hated on the wireless phone ear-piece and that i thought i'd be the last person ever to convert... well, halleleuja, my brothers and sisters because a convert i have become...

at the risk of out-dorking even myself, i hesitate to expand on my new-found love, but i feel inclined to give the readers what they want... or something like that... anyway, when i opened the iPhone box and saw the headphones i made the assumption that they were just straight-up apple ear buds. boy, was i wrong! there's a little "thing" [for lack of a better term] on the cord that acts as not only a microphone, but also a mini-remote! click the little "thing" once and it starts the track over, click said "thing" twice and it will advance to the next song, click it a third time and it does something else i have yet to discover but i'm sure is on-par with being cool... so yeah, i'm a big fan of this and mainly because i can switch-it-up with gloves on. what i love the most about going hands-free, however, is that when i'm iPod-ding with the iPhone and i get an incoming call, the music slowly fades-out and fades-back-in... it makes my conversations much more enjoyable which in-turn must make me more enjoyable to conversate with [am i right, mom?].

side note: at least the iPhone hands-free is nothing similar to blue-tooth hands-free. i could elaborate, but i'm not going to. apple=cool, blue-tooth=ghey.

sweet video

2009-01-27T21:34:00.000-07:00

"lets turn this mother out!" ... this rules:

sweet cover

2009-01-27T21:02:00.000-07:00

i came across this cover of the arcade fire's "my body is a cage" ... now we all know how i feel about the arcade fire, but this version by sara lov is brilliant:

we came; we saw; we LENKA'd

2009-01-25T11:44:00.000-07:00

this is lenka:

this is lenka's stage at the kilby court:

this is mel, me, and jaime [respectively] at the lenka show called "the show":

and this is mel, jaime, lenka, and me in the merch room:

lenka is lovely. if you haven't heard her, you probably should... and if you haven't met jaime or mel, you should probably do that as well... they wrote the book on being rad! and also, they had a girl crush on me when we were 19... and it still makes me smile when i think about it!

research & development

2009-01-23T14:35:00.000-07:00

i got an email from emilee yesterday asking about a coat of mine and inquiring the details of said coat so that she could purchase one for herself. she also said "i hope you don't mind," to which my response was something along the lines of "of course i don't mind!" ...and i really don't mind, but i took this as an opportunity to, once again, congratulate myself on my fantastic taste. humble much?! meh. humility can be overrated - plus this is my blog so i feel justified in saying whatever i want. neiner neiner neiner...

i digress, her inquiry led me to the world wide website where i purchased the garment [you know, as to provide her with a convenient link], which in-turn sent me on a downward spiral deep into the funnel of unproductivity and online "window" shopping. you see, the spring lines have hit and although i stick by my rule of never paying full price for anything [including macbooks - booya] it was utterly difficult for me to nay-say the temptation... the temptation is what irritates me the most about this and i'll tell you why... if you have ever had the chance, or get the chance, to peer into my closet you will find what i like to refer to as my "utopia-of-wardrobia" consisting of items ranging across all sorts of spectrums [seasons, materials, colors, sizes, etc.]. you will also find a mess, but that's not the point here... the point here is this ---------> i do not need anything new - want, yes; need, no...

so not to toot my own horn [see, i can be humble] or anything, but i think of myself as a stylish person; meaning with a personal sense of style and also the "in the know" kind of style... so here's where the "development" comes into play from all this "research" ... i have a sewing machine [thanks, santa] and a closet full of clothes i don't wear... botta bing, botta boom! those two things combined with my creative eye have inspired me to get to modifying and manufacturing... think of it as a renaissance of my closet, if you will, or you can think of it like vicki prefers: "you're one crafty betch!" either way, i find the possibilities of it all quite exciting [with the exception of the cleaning the closet part]!

alright, elko!

2009-01-22T11:30:00.000-07:00

this is going to be short and sweet as my creative juices seem to have abandoned me, and also because there's only so much you can do in elko, nevada... such as take-up perma-residence on your best friend's couch... and since they're your best friend, they find this endearing... and then they tell you you're pretty sans any effort into getting ready at all... and they take you to walmart in the same t-shirt you slept in, which they totally endorse since they're doing the exact same thing... and they steam you veggies for dinner and allow you to help yourself to the kiddo's candy bowl... and "hey, josh, beer me another diet coke!" ... ah, best friends rule! especially my best friends.

i love TORY!
i love JOSH!
i love RAMSEY!
i love RUGER [the dog]!

the night "the worm" came to town

2009-01-21T09:19:00.000-07:00

this is kris and they call him "the worm" ... i have no idea where that moniker came from, but it might have something to do with the time he jumped-ship in the mormon temple right before he was to be married for time and all eternity... regardless, kris is one of the most intelligent, creative, funny people i have ever known. we met through my old roommate [his x-fiance] in our utah state days, and although we kinda lost contact when he moved to new york to pursue his master's degree from n.y.u. [yeah, like i said - intelligent] we picked-up right where we left off... i love friends like that. especially when they can make you laugh the way "the worm" can make you laugh.

now that's johnny and the worm showing us their best moves... i wish i had a sequence shot of this because a .gif would really make this awesome, but i don't so whatever. trust me on the awesomeness of these two dancing. anyway, we did some gallery-strolling earlier in the evening and then went back to lindsey's gallery to get in some proper hang-time... turns out gallery strolling when you know people who know people is a lot of fun. it also turns out that having two x-boyfriends in the same small room at the same time can be handled like a champ - trust me, i know from experience... which is a whole other story in and of itself... but anyway, thanks to "the worm" and his lovely new wife for coming to visit and for showing me how to have the best time in my own town!

dancing & diddling

2009-01-20T12:18:00.000-07:00

fear not, my sweets... i'll post about my elko weekend soon, but until then, enjoy this little gem:

elko or bust!

2009-01-16T09:52:00.000-07:00

there's a high high high probability that i won't be able to sleep tonight. why, you might find yourself asking?! because i get to spend the weekend in elko, nv [not the exciting part] with some of my favorite people in the whole universe [totally the exciting part]! spontaneity and capricorns don't typically mesh well ... tory is the exception to all the rules.

here's the most recent photo we have of the two of us, so look forward to a serious fotolog come tuesday...

this was taken in 2002 - time for an update.

for the WIN!

2009-01-15T10:07:00.000-07:00

if the fact that it would've hurt me more than it would've hurt the machine hadn't been a factor this morning, i totally would've punched the treadmill.

it was just one of those cardio jams where you're watching the clock the whole time and no matter what is streaming through the pod, all you can think is "am i done yet?!" ... it turns into a continual battle with the self over giving-up or just keep going... and it's totally not fun. i really like fun. also, i forgot to take a hit off my inhaler beforehand so i think the lack of breathing-ease may have had something to do with my attitude... well that, and my bed was just OH SO COMFY today [and since i rarely type in caps i hope you see the serious emphasis i just made].

regardless, i saw it through and it ended not a moment too soon. sometimes these types of runs actually make you think, "wow, i'm so glad i did that." but not necessarily today. i'm glad i did it, yes, but mainly because i won't have to think about the fact i didn't do it all day long... make sense?!

so in other news... i won the war over cheese fries last night! yesss! this is honestly something i should get an award or some kind of recognition for... delicious training table cheese fries stared me in the face and i managed to politely look but not touch. i'd like to think that my sweet dinner partner was doing this in my best interest, you know, to see just how strong i was... i'd like to think he thought something along the lines of "wow, she's so strong! look at that will power! i didn't think it was possible but she looks even sexier with that fork of lettuce near her mouth!" alas, i'm sure those thoughts never even came close to entering his head [with the exception of the sexy part]. needless to say, his meal looked much more appetizing than mine... how could it not, really? hawaiian burger and cheese fries vs. wilted-iceberg-lettuce "salad"?!?! ... whatever. i still won this time! and had he ordered the dipping sauce it just might have changed the entire outcome of my decision not to partake in the gooey-deliciousness-that-are-the-training-table-cheese-fries... but thankfully for me, he's a simple ketchup-only kinda guy... so thanks, barowdwngs, thanks...

in living color [part two]

2009-01-13T14:40:00.000-07:00

a word of caution: if you're going to voice your unsolicited opinion in which i might find a little curious [and also annoying], don't be suprised when i do the exact same thing the next day... not necessarily to irritate - ok - yeah to irritate you, but also because i can.

i really should consider the source of all this and just let it go... its not her fault she's pushing sixty, a temporary employee, and bat-shit crazy. she also doesn't help her case by being bat-shit crazy.

"know first who you are; and then adorn yourself accordingly." -epictetus

yes, i learned that pose from modeling school and hillary duff endorsed my dress... ok that first part isn't true, but the second part is...

au revoire simone - sad song

2009-01-12T20:45:00.000-07:00

i want to attend this party, preferably in the grey dress [with the bow]...

in living color

2009-01-12T14:44:00.000-07:00

at lunch today i was told i was wearing too many colors... what?! well yeah, that can happen and i've seen it happen... but not to me. also, i was quite pleased with my color combination today so this comment caught me a bit off-guard and was completely unwarranted. if trying to be nicer and talking less crap weren't two of my new years resolutions, you would see a much longer rant here... alas, i have resolved... for now at least.

here's a picture to prove that my color choices were, indeed, kosher and not excessive by any means:

cream dress, orange coat, blue gloves, grey tights, brown boots...

how to lose 7.5 pounds in one week

2009-01-12T09:53:00.000-07:00

week one: weigh self on your mom's scale - get off said scale thinking "wtf??". go to gym.

week two: weigh self on own scale. realize it reads -7.5 from previous week. think, "wtf!" then realize your mom's scale has always weighed heavy. re-think, "WTF!" and go to gym.

now how to gain it all back in one meal, two words: grandma's house. go to gym.

i can't actually back that last part up, but it seemed like a nice way to end this blog... and i did indulge a bit at grandma's last night...

THE END

update: oh eight was so great

2009-01-10T12:02:00.000-07:00

due to circumstances beyond my control [ok, that's not necessarily true... i'm just being lazy] i will not be distributing hard-copies of my tribute-to-shows-i-attended-in-2008 mix disc... you see, when my old computer went jerk-tastic it postponed everything... and now i'm on to bigger and better things so i do apologize if you have lost any sleep in anticipation of my ode to '08... since i highly doubt that is the case, lets get on with this, shall we?! i've decided to just list the track order for you and you can all rush to itunes or emusic or whatever you kids are using these days and create the playlist yourselves! being self-sufficient is so hot right now...

so here it is! and as a sidenote, i ran to this today and i gotta admit, it has a great flow... which is somewhat impressive considering the genres don't necessarily mesh all that well... but whatever, it seems to work... so knock yourselves out!

oh eight was so great
one: broken social scene - stars and sons
two: andrew bird - fake palindroms
three: clap your hands say yeah - skin of my yellow country teeth
four: the faint - worked up so sexual
five: css - music is my hot hot sex
six: chromeo - needy girl
seven: m.i.a. - paper airplanes
eight: ladytron - playgirl
nine: of montreal - wraith pinned to the mist and other games
ten: feist - mushaboom
eleven: tapes n' tapes - say back something
twelve: nada surf - blizzard of '77
thirteen: fleet foxes - white winter hymnal
fourteen: the swell season - falling slowly

look what i can do!

2009-01-10T09:10:00.000-07:00

yes, my new pet slept right next to me - mainly because i was watching a movie on instant-netflix before i fell asleep, but i probably would've had it next to me regardless because i'm just that awesome...

so after checking the morning's stats [email, facebook, justin timberlake, etc.] i played with the photo booth application [which is rad, by the way] for a bit... then i got up, got some water, and when i came back to my room i had every intention of putting on my running gear but instead...

... my bed just looked so lonely!
and so do those running shoes...

a lovely evening this doth make

2009-01-09T22:06:00.000-07:00

[i'm fairly certain this is the first time i've ever used the word "doth"...]

lounge wear
cafe niche take-out
the prettiest/shiniest/sexiest purchase i've ever made
streaming andrew bird's not-yet-released noble beast

now if only i could have wrapped tonight up in one giant satin bow!

someone was wrong

2009-01-09T19:57:00.000-07:00

money bought me a macbook and, in turn, money bought me happiness!

thug life

2009-01-08T15:47:00.001-07:00

occasionally a certain mood will strike me and i'll get a craving for some ear-candy that can only be described in one way: a serious guilty treasure.

enter the thug life playlist.

now before i delve into this, you should know that i make absolutely no claim to being any sort of expert in the hip-hop/rap genre... nope, not even close! these are just songs i've come across that satiate the craving all while i'm gettin my run on...

one: timbaland - the way i are
two: ciera - one, two step
three: jay-z - dirt on your shoulder
four: missy elliot - work it
five: q-tip - vivrant thing
six: usher - yeah!
seven: nelly furtado - maneater
eight: method man and fred durst - n2gether
nine: kelis - milkshake

hey mother nature!

2009-01-08T11:00:00.001-07:00

why you gotta be such a tease?! you've given me a serious case of spring-fever this morning... not cool!

moving on

2009-01-07T09:17:00.000-07:00

sometimes in life it is necessary to close chapters in order to open new ones... i've found that although this can be painful, it can also be incredibly freeing... like sometimes you're so stuck in the world as you know it, and comfortable, that its scary to think of what lies beyond all this... you don't really know what you're missing out on, though, because you've been comfortable for, like, four-and-half-years... what i'm getting at is this: for whatever reasons, sometimes its just best to not ask questions... not to think too much into the mechanics of it all and what you could've done differently... to just realize, that although the ride has been a good one, every new beginning must come from some other beginning's end.

with that said, please click here.

yes, folks, that beautiful gem of computery will soon be mine... technically, it is mine, i mean i've paid for it... but now i'm just "patiently" awaiting it's arrival [keep your fingers crossed for friday]... so if you see me completely beaming around town, you'll know why...

may my whitey [ibook g4] rest in peace... he and i have been through a lot, both good and [until recently] bad... i have cared for him to the best of my ability [he's lasted four.five years - so that's some serious protection in my opinion]... i thought the loss of such a dear friend would be more difficult, but the beauty of the unibody macbook quickly did away with all feelings of melancholy and grief...

so with that, i say "audios amigo!" and "mister fedex man, can you please hurry it up?!"

oh, mirah

2009-01-06T16:53:00.000-07:00

this song meant a lot to me a few years ago... and by "a lot," i mean A LOT... "the dude" knows who he is and i'm sure he'd be OK about me mentioning him here if he ever stumbled across this blog...

anyway, this is not the official video but it's lovely nonetheless:

also, mirah will be at kilby court on march 17th - i know that's a bit out, but it gives us all something to look forward to... along with others including mr. bird and b.spears...

hot damn!

2009-01-06T14:41:00.000-07:00

after the new computer
and after the bills are paid for the month [of february? yeah, it'll probably be february]
i think i'll treat myself to:

oh, bless you ray ban - for your stylish take on the iconic wayfarer...

iDork: you are never alone...

2009-01-06T12:00:00.000-07:00

... i find this quite amusing... but then again, its an iDork thing, so you might not understand:

examined: thom yorke, adam levine, doo bee doo bee doo, and the like...

2009-01-05T14:14:00.000-07:00

i have often come across deeply heart-felt love songs that make me stop and wonder about just whom the song was written for/about... specifically, i like to try to imagine the kind of man/woman that could hurt someone to the extent that such a beautiful song was written... see radiohead's "all i need" for the specific inspiration for this post... i've been thinking like this for years now, in regard to various artists and songs and whatnot... it's fascinating to me and i'm not exactly sure why... other than music has always been much, much more than just sounds for me. i think there are two kinds of people in this world - the ones that will understand exactly what i'm saying here and the one's that don't think of music+emotion on the same level... regardless, i remember listening to songs about jane [maroon 5] for the first time and thinking, "i'd sure like to meet the girl who ripped his heart out." ... i could elaborate and think of hundreds and thousands of other examples when i've paused in wonderment, but i'm feeling more blahg today than blog - so i'll just leave it at that...

does anyone else ever think of these things? [<--- that's an honest question and not just a solicitation for blog comments.]

short and sweet

2009-01-05T10:47:00.000-07:00

i can't really make the claims of "best birthday ever!" or "i really couldn't have asked for more!" without following-up with a blog post... i'm not going to go into much detail, but needless to say, i stand by the aforementioned statements... i guess low-expectations going into it definitely helped, but even then, the few expectations i had were met times thirteen [seems like a reasonable number - and not as common as, oh say, ten]!

so thanks to all my family and friends for making me feel special... and not in the unfortunate-special way.

wowza

2009-01-04T10:52:00.000-07:00

for someone who rides the trax enough to consider herself an "experienced rider," i sure had fiasco with it yesterday...

it all started with a call from my grandma:
grandma: can you do lunch at chuck-a-rama by fashion place at 2:00?
me: yeah, sure! i'll have dad pick me up... see you then! [or something like that]

[sidenote: it's important to note that chuck-a-rama has always intrigued me... i have been known to longingly stare at it as i am driven past the establishment on fouth south, but that is a story for another day... needless to say i probably won't be going back... and we can leave it at this: it's a good thing there was a restroom within ten feet of our table, but not a good thing that the toliet was broken. oops i did it again.]

so my dad picks me up and we meet up with the fam at the restaurant. i'm not going to go into detail on this because i feel like what was mentioned above is adequate... lets get to the point: my dad decides to go to the b.basketball game thus leaving me sans ride home. grandma offers to take me, but only after they decide to go bowling. i'm not a bowler. and also, i had plans in which i had to get ready for so i knew this would just totally throw me off schedule... so i decide to take the trax...

my aunt drops me off at the stop and as i'm looking in my wallet i discover i only have a ten dollar bill... said aunt asks if i need cash... "no, it's cool. it's saturday! they never check anyway" ... my aunt looks at me suspiciously [being the good 10%-giving-church-goer that she is], tells me she loves me, and yak yak yak...

so i get on the train, sit down and start playing on my wireless telephone device... i hear the words "tickets please" and see a u.t.a. policeman standing about five feet from me... fear ensues...

he starts hassling some guy who is thumbing through various pockets and whatnot, leaving me to an interal freak-out session... you see, the ticket/citation for not having proper fare is $133.00... $133.00!! that's money that i'd have to dip into my computer fund for IF i would've gotten caught... and for such a stupid reason...

the wanna-be-real-cop gets to me and i tell him, "i switched-out my wallet earlier and i dont have my pass... i'll get off at the next stop and buy a ticket" ... "OK," he says and proceeds down the aisle [that is not true at all, by the way - i was totally going off the sheet on that - good thing i'm a quick thinker!]. so i jump off [not literally, i dont want to hurt my non-cankles] and insert the $10 bill... while i'm waiting for my change, sackagewea dollars, the trax leaves... UGH! it was cold outside! but whatever, i'll deal with $8.00 in dollar-coins to not have to pay $133.00 - and let's be honest, i was really lucky... of course that was the only trax cop i saw, and the ride to the gallivan center plaza was quite uneventful... as i'm waiting to make the transfer, i decide to walk across the street and get a cup of coffee... wouldn't you know it?! the university train is running early... so i totally miss it... i'm kinda ok with that, as i did wash my hair earlier that day so my "getting ready time" won't be nearly as long, but at the same time i'm quite irritated - early?! come on u.t.a.! it's called a schedule for a reason!

so i purchase a back-issue of the believer and wait, in the cold, for fifteen minutes... the train comes, i get on, but being so consumed in the article i was reading, i realize that i've missed my stop when i get to the stadium... SONUVA!!! ...more waiting...

i eventually made it home, but the lesson here is this: pay attention. pay your fare. and just go bowling with the fam... grandma's van is way more warm that the train.

new romantic

2009-01-03T00:10:00.000-07:00

laura marling:

in one word: stunning
this song makes me want to fall in love and then get quickly out of love - just so i can use this as "the song" ... but that seems like a lot of effort so i'll just keep listening to it without the emotional attachment.

nerd alert: online forums

2009-01-01T21:56:00.001-07:00

before i purchased my bicycle, i did a lot of research on bikeforums.net.

i will be buying a new apple laptop [because its like i always say: once you go mac you never go back*] sometime in the near future, and although i have a sufficient idea of just what will suffice, i decided to do some research on the subject... enter the macrumors.com forums.

and sometimes when i'm bored, i peruse the craiglist's discussion boards. i'm not even buying anything when i do this - unless of course you look at it as "buying" entertainment - but even then it's a stretch.

--------------------------> forums=good / uninformed=bad

*i've actually never said this... until now.

[untitled]

2008-12-31T01:16:00.000-07:00

remember the never ending story? more specifically, remember the three doors atreyu had to walk through to find the cure for the nothing? and even more specifically, remember the third door? the one where atreyu had to look at himself for who he truly was?

i always thought atreyu’s decision was silly - i thought that looking in a mirror and walking through seemed much easier than running past two huge winged mammoths with lazor eyes… i guess that made sense to my eight year old mind… but i’m realizing that when one gets to be twenty-eight, they tend to think quite differently…

i’ve realized that at twenty-eight, you really grasp just what you’re capable of and gain an authentic understanding of who you really are. you see the lives you have affected and those that have affected you – both positively and negatively. you see that you’ve stubbed your toes a few times and caused yourself to learn things the hard way – but you also grow from these lessons and appreciate the strength you didn’t know you had. you can realize that the reason you’re frustrated with someone else is really because you’re frustrated with yourself. you can set boundaries and stop the bad habits. you can realize your own selfishness. you can love and let yourself be loved. you can score 20,418 points in bejeweled and still meet your monthly quota. you can speak your mind or you can hold it all in. you can vocalize your fears and you can make a difference. you get to make a choice. and when you smile, you can feel that you are whole.

twenty-seven was good, but i have a feeling twenty-eight will be even better…

champagne taste, beer budget

2008-12-30T16:06:00.000-07:00

sometimes my frugal-savvy-ness really gets in my way. i refuse to pay full price for anything - unless i absolutely, stop-in-my-tracks-can't-live-without-it-love something. which rarely happens. this anj-ism is really crampin my style [so to speak] in regard to purchasing a big girl bag. i really, really want one [and will even go as far as to say i need one], but i just cannot bring myself to spend $250.00+ on a bag...

*all from urban outfitters. i couldn't even bring myself to look at anthropology.

sucker

2008-12-30T08:51:00.001-07:00

i'm a sucker for beautiful poetry, a beautiful voice, combined with a beautiful sound... i found a solution to the predicament of yesterday:

deVotchKa - januray 28th - in the venue.

in need of...

2008-12-29T12:22:00.001-07:00

... some LIVE music!

something happens at a live show - there's an aura in the air that just exudes energy and excitement. i need that. i need that badly. it's been a bit since i have attended a live show [i think of montreal was the last one] and while listening to my oh eight was so great mix earlier, i got all uppity and anxious about the lack of concerts as of late. such is life, i guess... i get that bands need to take some time off too - but i sure could use that special "something" that recharges me when i am fortunate enough to attend a good live show. especially when its an artist or band that i looooove.

i'd even settle for something i luke-warm love right about now...

[so about the oh eight was so great mix: i've been experiencing some pretty serious technical difficulties with my computer, so just be patient and i'll get it to you as soon as i am able... remember: good things come to those who wait.]

randomness

2008-12-28T10:09:00.001-07:00

one: december is by far the most blog-o-riffic month i've had. i think i'm at something like thirty posts... this blog thing goes in ebbs and flows, so i guess its a good think i'm taking advantage of the holiday "down time".

and two: i went to buy some new jeans yesterday, not that i needed them, but because i was feeling festive. i went to urban blues on 33rd south where they sale designer denim at discount prices - i highly recommend checking this place out - they have gear for guys too! so as it turns out, i wear two sizes smaller than i thought! you can imagine what that did for my psyche the rest of the day... needless to say it was a good day.

and three: i hope you all had a wonderful christmas, filled with fun and laughs and plenty of treats... i know i sure did!

walk with me...

2008-12-28T09:58:00.000-07:00

... down memory lane:

for some reason i've been enthralled in the footloose soundtrack the past little bit. ok, maybe "enthralled" is a bit much, but i've listened to it more than twice but less than ten times. [sidenote: doveman actually covers the album, and you can find more about that here.] anyway, this soundtrack, and specifically the title track, remind me of our house in kaysville. ty and i were probably four and three [respectively] and we'd put the cassette in the biiiig ghetto blaster, crank the volume up, and get dancey! i think my favorite part of all this is when we'd put on our sunday shoes just to kick them off when kenny loggins sings, "...kick off your sunday shoes" ...

wow, ty, you were a really good sport. i'd like to post a picture of you playing dress-up with me, but i can't find it and mom's scanner is not working. perhaps i'll see what i can come up with...

fitter, happier

2008-12-26T15:06:00.000-07:00

it occurred to me today while i was putting in some much needed treadmill time that i haven't been able to wear my favorite pair of jeans in about five years. yeah, FIVE YEARS. give it a minute to let that sink in, i sure had to... now i could get all depressed about this subject and come up with various justifications and reasonings for my lack of favorite-jeans-appreciation, but that is not the point of all this [nor is it a characteristic i choose to oblige]. perhaps my endorphins played a part in my reaction or it was the playlist i was running to - i'm not sure - but this realization inspired me to push harder and go farther/longer than i have in quite awhile. more importantly, though, this "little" factoid sparked those feelings of determination and ambition i had for being fit [and healthy] that somehow got lost five-ish years ago. i can't really explain it - but my sense of dedication to physical fitness came back just as quickly as it was lost... and guess what? it felt soooo good!

now my reasoning for blogging about this is two-fold; first of all, it means a lot to me that these feelings have returned. over the past four-five years, i have had more than a few bouts of, "i'm going to hit it hard [come monday]!" and, "it's high time i get back in shape!" ... but nothing has quite sparked like what happened today. like i said, i can't explain it... i feel this is important for myself to put down in writing, so here we are. i also feel that blogging about this holds me accountable to keeping it up. being accountable is huge for me - so i really can't think of a better way to accomplish these things...

i plan to write a weekly blog about where i'm at and how i'm feeling. and also, about how the jeans are fitting. :) hopefully you people will enjoy reading about this journey as well. i got a new app for my iphone called "iShape" that will help me track my progress. i hope to be brave enough to post before and after photos, but for now, those will remain private... for obvious reasons. :)

post script: the title is from a radiohead song you can find on ok computer

hey lisa!

2008-12-24T09:33:00.000-07:00

two words: four corners
two more words: four corners TO THIS!

i've had some sweet dance-parties to this song... solo and mono-y-mono and even whilst laying in bed.

text exchange between the oldest [trav] and the middlest [me]

2008-12-24T09:22:00.001-07:00

middlest: hi brother [sent from my iPhone*].
oldest: what? you got an iPhone? why didn't you blog about it or put something on your facebook?
middlest: i did. last friday. get with the now.

so here it is, for all the world to know - my street-cred/social-stock-value has just gone up. how much? i'm not sure due to the economy... but friend me now, sweet people of the internets, and you can maybe touch my new phone. but only maybe.

*remember how i mentioned i do things for my own amusement a lot of the time? this was one of those times.

happy festivus!

2008-12-23T10:08:00.000-07:00

december 23: festivus
n. an alternative to the crass commercialization of christmas, typically celebrated on december 23. it involves the airing of grievances (telling your family and friends all the ways they have disappointed you during the year) and does not end until the feats of strength (pinning the head of the family) are accomplished. a plain, metal pole is used in lieu of a christmas tree, because decorations (such as tinsel) is distracting from the true meaning of the holiday.

"a festivus for the rest of us! -george costanza

source: urban dictionary.

who would've thought

2008-12-23T09:13:00.000-07:00

built to spill covers m.i.a.

happy [early] birthday to me!

2008-12-22T10:10:00.001-07:00

it was a toss-up between the big girl purse i've been wanting since september view here in coffee bean but refuse to pay full price for ... or THIS ... so i went with the latter.

i have regretted not seeing justin timberlake in phoenix for two years now... and that two years has really taken it's toll - i've had to settle for his concert on dvd... anyway, back to the matter at hand...

b.spears - april 14th - she better perfom songs off in the zone, my favorite of hers due to nostalgia.

p.s. it just dawned on me that i paid the same for these tickets as i did for david sedaris. although the sedaris monies went to npr and i got to write it off, regardless, that show was well worth it! so i'm sure that brit will also make me proud!

girl talk

2008-12-21T10:48:00.000-07:00

gregg gillis + macbookpro = girl talk

i'm going to be brief about this and give you the idea, link to his myspace, and allow you to take it from there.

anyway, girl talk mashes up indie/pop/hip-hop and creates not only an outstanding dance-party, but also some pretty sweet beats to run to [yes, i did just say "sweet beats"]. i've seen this guy and his computer a couple times at the urban lounge, and i can tell you this: no one, not one person, leaves the place not dripping in sweat [no exaggeration] and also, reeking of cigarette smoke. these shows were some of my favorite nights of '07 and '08. and just as a sidenote: girl talk insists on being part of the crowd - at the first show i saw, he pulled the table off the stage and into the middle of the floor. a tarp covered his computer to protect it from the amount of sweat that was flying through the air.

so his latest album, feed the animals, is available as a "pay what you want" download. much like radiohead did with in rainbows. so you really have no excuse not to check it out. but listener beware, a parental advisory for explicit lyrics is included [sorry, mom].

linky link:
take me to the girl talk myspace page so i can see for myself this dance-tasic dude anji speaks of

eye-tunes revamped

2008-12-21T10:07:00.000-07:00

this may be for my sole amusement but that's the case with a lot of the things i do, so i'm ok with it. for whatever reasons, i almost always wake-up in the morning with a random song in my head. i'm not sure the why's or how's, but this has been an on-going thing for as long as i can remember. i've tried to trick myself into using it to my advantage, like saying to myself, "self [i don't actually say "self" but i threw that in for lisa], you're going to be so psyched in the morning when you get to find out just what song mister sandman planted in your head!" ... that tactic has actually never worked... i'm still not the biggest fan of getting out of bed.

i digress, i've decided that my eye-tunes will now be changed daily to the song that i woke-up with in my head. what a fun way for all of us to enjoy this wackiness!! that's right kids... this will be FUN!

well, without further adu, i present to you the song-o-the-morn.

pS keep in mind you can always just pause the song if you're not into this sort of thing.

work perk [part deux]

2008-12-19T09:55:00.000-07:00

this picture speaks for itself. my only commentary is this: if you talk about something enough, people just may start to listen. AND mick jagger was right, "...if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you neeeeeeed..."

moh-stache

2008-12-18T08:52:00.000-07:00

one of the perks of having long-ish hair [aside from the obvious sexy-factor] is that i can disguise myself with a hair-stache whilst utilizing public transportation...
exhibit a:

sorry about the image quality but you get the 'picture'. also, please no jokes about mustache rides.

share and tell

2008-12-15T10:59:00.001-07:00

i've had a few requests from you people to post some of my written "work". early 2007 i came up with some pick-up lines, written in the voice of a neurotic person. although only slightly neurotic myself [i think all women are] i did my best and think they're kinda clever, but then again, i'm biased. so here are three of my favorites from this little collection...

what time do you have to be back in heaven? i'm not suggesting you're dead or that you look dead or even that you believe in an afterlife. i was just referencing the widely accepted notion that heaven [regardless of religion] is a utopia. and since a utopia is a perfect place and everything in it is perfect, i just thought you'd be from there. you got time for some falafel?

you must be a light switch, because every time i see you, you turn me on. and i'm not so sure that's a good thing, what with global warming and all. i'm not so sure it's bad thing either, but i try to leave the lights off as much as possible and definitely if i'm not in the room at the time. i even shut down my computer every night. you'd be surprised how the little things can make a big difference. have you used those energy-efficient light bulbs?

if you were words on a page, you'd be what they call "fine print." now, that's not to say you are the much maligned and oft-ignored small-print disclaimer that the legal department of many corporations slip in toward the bottom of their ads to stipulate the limitations of their offers. i was just using a little wordplay with "fine."

one. two. three. four...

2008-12-15T09:24:00.001-07:00

... and i want more.

yum

2008-12-14T13:47:00.001-07:00

i had a weird craving that just had to be satisfied today. its kinda chilly outside, but i walked to the grocer to purchase some lucky charms and a pint of milk. i honestly have no idea where this craving came from, but god bless that man who came up with this cereal. and god bless my ability to get to the store sans car. i guess stranger things have been known to happen, just not usually to me.

charm on!

pat myself on the back...

2008-12-12T10:44:00.001-07:00

... i don't mean to toot my own horn, but i gotta brag a little... and seeing as how this is my blog i feel justified in doing so...

i just got a verbal commitment from the salt city derby girls that they have decided to take 'me' up on 'our' offer and will now be calling the salt palace "home"! boooyaaaah! i mean, BOOOOYYYYAAAAHHH! that's nine solid events [quite possibly more], contracts to be issued, and my name surrounded in stars... not really, but go with me on this one...

so aside from the feeling good about myself and my ability to successfully perform my job, this really doesn't mean much [read: i don't work on commission]. however, i'd say feeling good about oneself and one's success is worth more than any commission would be...

p.s. my main contact [dirty pirate hooker - seriously, that's her derby-alias] said, "...on a personal level, i just want to thank you for all you've done. we really enjoy working with you and we think you're awesome."

question...

2008-12-11T12:45:00.000-07:00

...for you blahg-savvy individuals out there who have me on an rss or google reader [em? bean?]... first of all thank you, how flattering! even though it makes it easier on your lives, i still find it exciting that someone, other than my mother, wants to keep up with my to-do's and ramblings. anyway, to the point of this rambling: i typically proof-read before i post in the create window. then i'll publish and "view blog" to read it again. often times i decide to edit when i'm "viewing blog". so i edit. then post. edit again. then post [again]. so my question is this: does it show multiple posts in your 'tracker' or just the once? if it shows multiple times i sincerely apologize, as it is easier for me to proof-read when i see how the final 'product' comes together.

let me know. i hate to be annoying [the only exception to that is when i'm with my brothers - its what sisters do].